I lost him ;But I Found Tranquility -KABULONGOU- Part 2

Instruction For freedom

Life's metaphors are God's instruction

The day is ending. Its time for something that was beautiful

to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.

Your wish for resolution was a prayer,

Your being here is a God response. Let go,

and watch the stars come out--

on the outside and on the inside.

With all your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF,

and let him go.

When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin

the rest of your life. With great joy.

LET GO..

In this 3 tier Splashing Kobulongou waterfall, punching on my back as if God is punishing me,

i shut my eyes and said... "Dear Lord, please show me everything i need to understand, about forgive and surrender."

I almost stand there and cry right then,but quickly realized that i didn't need to. Tears are part of this bodily life, and the place where these two souls were meeting that night had nothing to do with the body.

A blue souls that already understand everything... let go..

( This is a 5 months back story and today i finally have the guts to put it in words, i finally learnt to LET GO.. )

How Beautiful ....

How Beautiful to receive such email of people around the world, sending you emails of their interest in coming to "THE LOST WORLD".

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Anton Rijven to me

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Hello Melissa,

Thank you for your email

&

your nice Season Greetings...

We did not forget about you

your animal love

&

your petshop

in KK...

We googled Meliau Basin

and found out

its a beautiful lost world

totally unspoiled nature

with huge waterfalls

and maybe a good reason

for a future visit..

Thank you very much !

So how is life over there?

(and on Bali ?)

We are doing fine here and

allready packed for

a small 15 day- holiday in

Thailand,

leaving tomorrow.

But before we leave we like to send you

our Christmas Greetings and Best Wishes for 2011.

Who knows...

one day our roads will cross again..

until then

take good care...

Huggzzz... XXX

My Blueberry Night

There is no reason for someone to give up on you.. Today he/she choose cheese, tomorrow he/she choose Chocolate... he/she just doesnt love blueberry... just because of the flavor.. nothing else...

"How did you say goodbye to someone you cant live without?; i didnt say goodbye, I didnt say anything, I didnt choose to leave either,i just walk away, at the end of that night, i decided to walk the longest path home"

~Nora Jones~

"My Blueberry Night"

This month Issue~ Emotional Intelligence

Time past so fast, another month gone with the wind.... its the first quarter of the year.. what have i achieved, and what have i accomplished...? sometimes i just wonder... Did i made the right move to come back to KL... however, time will tell and spizzica outcome will tell the truth...

This month was a crucial and hollow month, i had plenty of arguments especially with the person i love, things just doesnt go along with my expectation, did i expect too much from him ? or he is just too emotional insensitive... I lost my temper few times, throw my tantrum like a toddler, and even cried like a baby... some how or rather, i made him feel painful but still... he is wondering why...

i think, Emotional Intelligence is really running out in most of the guys nowadays ( especially , the malaysian guys.....) That makes most of the woman feel like a CD repeating as everything needs to be told again and again and yet it is ignored by the him.Sometimes, after being with you for more then a year, they started to cruise on the flat emotion that where there is no need to communicate or even think he needs to improve his love life/career/ fitness level etc. So when woman try to puor their heart out trying to be nice and expect to be loved in return they turn out to be a died lizard lying on the road.

EI- generally is an important radar that use to read people,connect quickly and asses whats really going on/ whats needed. In specific explanation, EI is all about understand why we feel and behave the way we do so that we can recognize and respond to the feelings when they arise. EI is use to develop greater self awareness and self control in our relationships with others.

Its is really hard to find a man who is high in their Emotional Intelligence, when they can acknowledge, notice and adress your feelings promptly, they will show their empathy, love and support and even intuit what they can do to have a strong , intimate and meaningful relationship in all walks of life with you.

I somehow think... its way too far to find a man who is emotionaly sensitive enough, unless the are season and experience man ( you know what i mean ;) ) or they are just temporary excited to be fetish in love...

Its late , i m going to rest now... nice dinner with my thai housemate whom is leaving soon back to Bangkok.

When Your Simplicity is Appreciated

I received an email on a poem wrote to me today....it feels wonderful to have some one appreciating and loving you at times.... however, in reality.... i m who i am bah...

"In her voice I hear sadness
though she tries to cover it so well
when I hear her laughter
my heart begins to swell

Pain has become an enemy
she battles it with pride
in our conversations
anguish, she tries to hide

She carries weight on her shoulders
enough to break the strongest soul
offering a helping hand to others
because her heart is made of gold

Her writing not complex
emotion weaves the lines
what lays within her heart
is what her poetry defines

Often offering words of comfort
expression sincere and true
a shoulder to cry upon
helping to pull you through

I don't need words complex
to express my love
she is an inspiration
and all the things above

Do I believe in angels ?
Yes I think God sent one to me
though she doesn't have wings nor a hallow
she is a beautiful soul I call ..."

EC.Copright Reserve

Some one who is not right might be perfect for another person.This is what i learn in every aspect of life. Before u put the passion, you must love it first.