Lower Back

I stopped yoga lately just because of the lower back pain that has been long for a month. It started last month due to arrival equipment to our factory. I was too excited on the arrival of the equipment and was trying to help out to arrange for the opening of the wood pallet. Argghh! this sprain just came without me realizing and this back injuries has drag me for a month or so...

Well, i know this is no joke as i feel the pain after a long hour sitting in front of my laptop, or walking with my heels and even sometimes bending down to pick up things. it pains at the certain angle and even more painful when the weather is cold or rainy days. It doesnt sound like arthritis is it??

No way, i need to get this treated as i m still young for so many activities ( you bet! ) so i went to a Thai massage to see if it does cure, however, they were just temporary relief for me :(... I know the worst thing i should do is to get my spinal scanned however, i m still putting hope on certain therapy methodology that can cure my lower back pain.

Hence, i bought a sitting spring, which actually support my back bone while sitting in fron of the laptop. Stop wearing all my high heels, and start shopping for flat, ballet shoes that walk me around for 3 -4 hours, and sleep with a hard pillow support at my back. ( i have been doing this for a week coming to 2) and i can feel it slowly heals back.

So i started back my yoga today and i found a few clips at you tube that could really help our lower back pain exercise. Cat cow, open peagoen post are all the good post for lower back and hip. Check this video clip out for a short posture guide.

I will try this posture every alternate day.. i hope it can heal my back pain. This feeling is not good and i lose my confidence at times. :(

Reminder and precaution in protecting your back !

- When lifting heavy items, bend your knees, not your back. Do not lunge OR jerk when lifting a load.

- Stretch and move every now and again when sitting for extended periods of time. Use a small pillow for back support.

- Sleep on your side with your legs drawn up slightly toward your chest. Do not sleep on your stomach.

-Weight Control at all time !

Baby ! I Miss You...

I still remember, the last dog i had at home in Sabah was called Blacky ( which was 10 years back when i was in Tawau) Mamamia... Blacky die and my family moved to KK, eversince i dont have a pet attached.

Lately, a friend of mine brought his dog little pug name Baby to me... from the first day we met, i fell in love with her and my heart melt with the adorable and comic action. When she sees some one new, she like to smell, hike on you and, and lick you all over.. when she is happy, she express her excitement with full of energy, she swing her tiny tail which goes along with her butt and and her big round eyes look at you as if she is trying to convey a message to you.

She loves playing "fighting game" and she loves to squeeze in between tiny warm place of your body.. for example, in between your hip , in between you breast or in between you arm... she is smart in looking for good location to has her self set free... Look at this picture of her, it looks like~ " OH~ WHO CARES HOW I SLEEP~

She is just too comfy on the Sofa!

She sleeps almost 14 hours a day, but when she woke up she is so hyper that she wants to play so much.. she likes to play fight and chasing.. then she bark as if she is very fierce and strong ( which she is not) she cant even go down a staircase and walk through a steel tunnel. She is just a baby.. that need extra attention.

Sometimes, she look at you with her big round eyes like these

" What the f xxx do you want ??! "

The fold and features on her face make her look fierce but actually she is not... she is just curious on anything she see... even she tried drinking cola and burb so loud like a man.. OMG.. she is just so lovable.

Sometimes, I let her do whatever she wants on me.. this is what she did :-

She Sniffs you all over, She bites you all over and then she squeeze in between anywhere of your body.

Everyday i must meet her at the park... we must spend sometime communicating and play around... she is irreplaceable.

Baby... i miss you !

She is no more a virgin~

Its been a while my blog was left stagnant... with the tight schedule and work piling up for factory set up... i was unable to keep my journal updated.. however, today i would love to have my usual Nescafe Gold, sit on my wooden teak wood table, and drop a few words for the day.

Last two night, i have been making myself busy by going out with my housemates Kate & Ice. Ice is the niece of Kate who just came from Thailand. They are both native of Thai so , Kate has been staying with me for quite a while, we some what have this similarity in sharing about our community culture, living lifestyle, and opinion about life.

Since Ice never been to any of the pub, disco and club, we decided to bring her out and gave her a good grooming for the night. So, Off we go on Friday Night Fever!

I can see from Ice how nervous, excited and engross she was with the preparation of our fast make up and hairdo. She herself was lost with the newly expose make up kit and paraphenalia. However, nature of girls... Make up is like the hardware for the man... Kate and I put on a list of dress for her, then i tried my very best to put on her make up (which i almost forgot what i ve learnt in AIS, and gave her hair a curl for the night )so, she started to check out mirrors .... she is gorgeous, naive little girl.

Since this is the first time we went to club together, i am not sure how these girls can handle themselves, so i told myself to be sorber at all times, and watchful on my belongings while enjoying the dance. We hope into Rum Jungle and the club was pretty empty... however, we re between a tables of party people with their girlfriends. Unbelievable, the last person i expect to get drunk... Kate... she had so much fun... touching the guy next table to us , and waving to everyone " good Bye, Good life and Have Fun! " ... Ice was alright but its an eye opener to her... this is her first time and she was looking stunned and shock at any point of time.

We dance whole night long, releasing our stress, boredem and fat in our body and soul...

I drove home in a tipsy mode, trying to keep myself sorber and avoid police checking at all time... Lucky i skipped the Check point at Jln P Ramlee.. Its a great night ever since i dance the last time ( which i cant remember when ) .... Dancing... is still a part of my life...

This month Issue~ Emotional Intelligence

Time past so fast, another month gone with the wind.... its the first quarter of the year.. what have i achieved, and what have i accomplished...? sometimes i just wonder... Did i made the right move to come back to KL... however, time will tell and spizzica outcome will tell the truth...

This month was a crucial and hollow month, i had plenty of arguments especially with the person i love, things just doesnt go along with my expectation, did i expect too much from him ? or he is just too emotional insensitive... I lost my temper few times, throw my tantrum like a toddler, and even cried like a baby... some how or rather, i made him feel painful but still... he is wondering why...

i think, Emotional Intelligence is really running out in most of the guys nowadays ( especially , the malaysian guys.....) That makes most of the woman feel like a CD repeating as everything needs to be told again and again and yet it is ignored by the him.Sometimes, after being with you for more then a year, they started to cruise on the flat emotion that where there is no need to communicate or even think he needs to improve his love life/career/ fitness level etc. So when woman try to puor their heart out trying to be nice and expect to be loved in return they turn out to be a died lizard lying on the road.

EI- generally is an important radar that use to read people,connect quickly and asses whats really going on/ whats needed. In specific explanation, EI is all about understand why we feel and behave the way we do so that we can recognize and respond to the feelings when they arise. EI is use to develop greater self awareness and self control in our relationships with others.

Its is really hard to find a man who is high in their Emotional Intelligence, when they can acknowledge, notice and adress your feelings promptly, they will show their empathy, love and support and even intuit what they can do to have a strong , intimate and meaningful relationship in all walks of life with you.

I somehow think... its way too far to find a man who is emotionaly sensitive enough, unless the are season and experience man ( you know what i mean ;) ) or they are just temporary excited to be fetish in love...

Its late , i m going to rest now... nice dinner with my thai housemate whom is leaving soon back to Bangkok.

Juggling between the East & West~

Being a village girl and away from home, it might be pretty cool for a moment but feeling lost, like an " Ikan Bilis" in this metropolitan city.KL~

Its been 3 months i am away from home, everything which needs to be settle seems pretty done, especially relocating of new shelter, Sending Black Horse, and getting all necessity done in time. ( Thanks to my dear boss who has been very helpful and supportive all through the way); however being premanantly in this city, no one is allow to stop in order to make ends meet and make a living in KL.

Sometimes, i feel the tranquility in myself... as if there is "nothing" i have here, but true friends. I miss every bits of KK, be it the dirty highway that caused black horse full with mud, the nag from my mom for coming home late, the night insects that always attack my room, the port hole of KK highway, the boring night life that every where you go, you meet the same circulation of familiar faces. ... still... i miss KK.. especially the care free people that i met, the real "pribumi" who never want to leave their mother land. http://www.mysabah.com.my/ or http://www.kadusmusic.com.my/ or you can even check this website out on how much welcoming sabah is for tuorist all over the world http://www.littleitaly-kk.com/

However, i was told this is a process of charactor building~ yes CHARACTOR BUILDING it seems... being away doesnt mean u forget your root, or your origins, but just building a stronger personalities by going through all the obstacle or so called "shitty experience" here.....so, in short~ this is what i get.....

"KK~ Simplicity, Carefree, unique, & Exotic to

KL~ Luxurious, Chic, Cosmopolitan & Stylish" ....konon lah~

Well, after all ... i just got to be happy ... move on and always asked my self "Now I was without a man my time was just for me. I was going to live my own Sex and the City existence – but would I really find that my new life matched the series? "

New words of the day " Pheromone"

I learn a new word from a good friend of mine today... he smells my pheromone... man!
In google search PHEROMONE means

" a chemical that triggers a natural behavioral response in another member of the same species. There are alarm pheromones, food trail pheromones, sex pheromones, and many others that affect behavior or physiology. Their use among insects has been particularly well documented, although many vertebrates and plants also communicate using pheromones"

So in human socialogy, pheromone usually used in man's parfume in order to attract female to arouse their sexual desire... its an ingrediant that used by most leading parfume company for the purpose of attracting the opposite sex.... See, now you know, buying parfume is not just only making you smells good, it also makes your courting success! Haha~

Little treat after a Sad Day~

Everything was so furstratung today, internet at home was down, nothing can be done at home after a tiry day of arguing with him..being fly kite by friend who suppose to meet up since last week... since BH is here, i thought of bringing him for a wash near by My house.

Instead of turning to car wash, i turn to Hair Wash! ha.... gave myself a little treat so i wont be so worn out by sadness, anger and all dissapointment that i have to accept. So here i go Face Affair~

Because i was so pissed, so i just told the stylist do anything he want with my hair, so he said 3 important things in a womans hair... 1 ) shine ( which i dont have) ,2) no split end ( which i have )3) No dandruff ( and i have it too! ) .. so i decided to request 3 things that instantly make me happy. So he did something which eventually turn out quite satisfying.. 1 ) Curl ( since my hair is dry ) 2) cut the fringe shorter ( so i look more shinny and fresh ) 3) wave ( so i dont look so dull)

and all in all with a good dandruff treatment only cost me RM 49.90... Boleh tahan!

Its so easy to make a woman impulse happy...However, the next day, my hair went straight back, too heavy, too much it seems ... hai~

Good Day Ahead !

Am having my favorite Nescafe Gold while waiting for the time to leave from home to start my day. Still waiting for his sms geetings but yet to hear anything since last nite *grin*

I know i shouldnt be into this but my, IQ( intelligent Quotient) doesnt work well without EQ( Emotional Quotient), emotion play a very strong roll in my daily progessive...

ok my morning coffee is finish, i have to go now. good day melis~

The Sunday Brew~

Today, beside being lazy as usual, i stayed at home reflecting back the week to do list...things are moving pretty fast, factory is targeting to be done by month end and hopefully everyone can start testing our pizza the soonest.


However, looking back, deep down inside my heart, emotional mood are still fumbling, i know i have to go through this, for the better of both of us. I know he can be better without me, and i know he deserve some one better. However, i will always remember the inforgetable and precious moment, as well as the long distance realtionship that we have gone through together.


I came across this while reading one of a celebrity (sabahan's blog, btw i always like to check out sabahan celebrity cause i am very proud of them, for not forgeting their root but flying far and making us proud ), See~ Sabahan are always full of emotion :) :-

It's so easy to move ahead and go on with life but we both know we don't want to.
It's so easy not to look back but we know in retrospect, what we have had gone through was precious and irreplaceable.
It's so easy to say, goodbye but deep down inside it's not what we really meant to say.
It's so easy to say, forget it ever happened but we know the feeling is too entrenched to be erased off our minds and hearts.
It's so easy to say, you have yours and I have mine, we will live separate lives.
It's so easy to say, I'll give this up for your happiness and for mine but it's not true.
It's so easy to say, time will help us forget about each other but you know it will not happen unless amnesia hits us.
It's so easy to say, I will back off and cut off those correspondence but we know that we are too connected and can't live without it.
God, please grant him the best of all and let him be happy for the life he deserved!

The weather seems agreeing to my feeling today, thunder strike and lightning every now and then, following with down pour of raining cat and dogs, they emphatize my feeling i suppose...

10 things i hate about you~

I dedicate this simple poem to a best friend of mine, whom i really loved and anxious about once upon a time, he created emotions in me, and his kisses has played apart in my life :~

" I Hate when you talk to me, without thinking how sensitive a woman is

I hate when u smoke, and never clear your own ashtray

I hate when you shower, and wet all over the floor of my wash room

I hate when you forgotten all the table manners that i've reminded you over and over again

I hate when you dont feel anxious when i m always not there for you

I hate when you dont kiss me good nite, and care more on your football

I hate when you dont sing me oldies anymore

I hate when you dont cuddle me at night

I hate when you dont call me and ask how am i

and most of all, I hate when you are still insisting that you are "OK" when i know you are not"

I hate... i really hate, when i have to go through this stage... just for the good of both of us...

melissasy

When Your Simplicity is Appreciated

I received an email on a poem wrote to me today....it feels wonderful to have some one appreciating and loving you at times.... however, in reality.... i m who i am bah...

"In her voice I hear sadness
though she tries to cover it so well
when I hear her laughter
my heart begins to swell

Pain has become an enemy
she battles it with pride
in our conversations
anguish, she tries to hide

She carries weight on her shoulders
enough to break the strongest soul
offering a helping hand to others
because her heart is made of gold

Her writing not complex
emotion weaves the lines
what lays within her heart
is what her poetry defines

Often offering words of comfort
expression sincere and true
a shoulder to cry upon
helping to pull you through

I don't need words complex
to express my love
she is an inspiration
and all the things above

Do I believe in angels ?
Yes I think God sent one to me
though she doesn't have wings nor a hallow
she is a beautiful soul I call ..."

EC.Copright Reserve

Some one who is not right might be perfect for another person.This is what i learn in every aspect of life. Before u put the passion, you must love it first.

Letoya-Torn

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home,
A part of me says i m living a lie,
And i m better off without you,
A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says i m over you,
A part of me wants to say good bye, a part of me is asking why....

A part of me want to leave but a part of me want to be here with you, and everytime i think we re over and done, you do something to let me back loving you, and you got me just torn.

So many times i was ready to go, so many times i had my foot out of the door; So many times i thought of giving him a chance just to think that he will be a better man, cause i keep fighting myself for you,you got me so torn.

Something is telling me i should leave you alone, or you will just keep me torned.......

Its a Breakthrough, instead of a Break Off...

After a year of distance relationship, finally we re back together again. Does it really really working out right? I have put my full effort of making it happened again, we have breathrough the first stage, now we re moving ahead to a harder stage.



Anyhow, i came across few books about answers to Questions like " I wonder Why?" Well, how do we define " attachment, detachment and desire" when we re in Love?



What is the difference between being attached to other people and loving them?

sometimes, when we said we re attached, we over estimate other people's qualities, thinking that they are better than they actualy are. However, we care about then just because they please us, they care, help, praise and even encourage us etc. What we ordinarily called LOVE is usually just attachment. With attachment, we do not see people for who they are or what they are, and thereby develop many expectation on them. When they do not live up to what we thought, we are hurt, or we disillusioned.

I am not sure how many cases of separation went through my ears, reading, saying is very much easy then really doing it ... sometimes, when u manage to went through a period of long time with your partner, i congrates you, its really a breakthrough....for life long relationship.

The Opening

I have not been writting my journal for couple of month. I use to update it monthly at http://www.melissasy.blog.friendster.com; due to my relocation from KK to KL, my new job interview process as well as my house hunting experience, i had a long list to do :), but its over, and now its the time to sit down, and start opening back my Jumanji game~


Well, lets talk bout my last christmas:~

Last christmas, i had 3 wonderful gift, Christmas has never been a big celebration for me, although i dont celebrate much ( just monginum in cousins place) , i enjoy exchanging gifts with precious one. It really shows the little appreciation and how much a person thought about you, it also shows who really take the effort for the relationship that you have. So, here is what i got :-






Anna Sui lip Golden matt lip Gloss ( pretty cool for clubbing )




Cerruti 1881 classy, water resistant watch.



And ... Versace Crystal Noire by Gianni Versace.





There are real wonderful gift as all match in one occasion... Woowwwuuuu..... however, knowing me, i will always keep them in my precious box, till god knows when... then forgotten that i have these precious gift.


Last christmas, i also gave mama & papa some cool staff... and they are loving it ! There birthday falls on the christmas eve, so i brought them to nice dinner at Tjg Aru, The mediterranean for a Cosy dinner. Papa Got a Camel cling bag to put all his gadget during travelling and mama got her Swatch Watch for Birthday. We had quality time together for a simple fine dinner.






The Mediterranean @ First Beach Tjg Aru. A must try when you come to KK.





So, December was actually a great month for me, not more on the christmas, but more on my decision for moving ahead, and live a life.... Its an outdated journal, but i can never forget, what i have gone thru :)


melissasy

KL~ Here i come

Hi, I m a purely Sabahan clane. I started this blog for a reason. My new job, new career, new life and new living environment, in this urban area... In this blog, i want to convey my life experienced message, my thought about happenings around to all readers, these goes especially to my Sabahan friends, as well as those who speaks the same tune with me. Be it beautiful story, shitty experience in KL as well as events which comes in a blue moon.

As you can read here, i m a direct and simple writter... the purpose of writting this journal is to keep track on the massive changes of this society and friends, please bombared me with your comments and thoughts, are you in line with me :)Ciao Sabahans~

by melissasy

The Unexpected One.

Today,when the sun shines and i forced to open my eyes , its was already 7 30 am.Thinking back on last nite, was a tiry and hectic day but quite lose in the sence that what actually have i contribute and learn??? :((
Can life get better with my switch of line? So often our life is a trade off between making money , We need to sacrifice of the flexibility and time we want, in order to make our life into fullest.

Datuk was so tension today, he shouted to every one and told every body off. I knew he is very persistant in his business, and his karma... when he look it you, its like he is going to shout to you and when u silent he will thinks that your brain is empty. What actually in his mind, you will never know.

I couldnt imagine what i did .and i did not expect i was daring.. that me... God, please protect me, what ever i m doing... its just for my own self, to make a living in this KL Life...

God bless.. Amitabha

Me, Myself and I

I started to Join P & I regional 2 September 2004. Due to certain trip to China, i was not able to start on the 1 Sept. What exactly is my position? My role and my focus? I do not know, but i know i m going to learn, i m going to identify my personality and im going to grab all the oppurtunities in this society.Like him, a man who is already at retiry age, yet still exceling in his business, continous improvement and no turnning back.

What can i do to enhance myself? i knew i weak in every perspective, Jack of all trade, Master of None. What can i do i joinning this company? Be Focus, like everybody say.. be focus ... thats what i m trying to do now.